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I want to comment on the fact that yesterday was an emotional roller coaster for me.  And that I am kind of sick of the lack of structure in my life. Yesterday was one of those days that I had decided was a “day off”. I decided I was going to dress comfortably and just be myself. I wasn’t going to do things for other people, only for myself. Now, I did drop off an Avon book and take a friend to work, but on a normal day that would just be a small percentage of the lengths I go to for other people, whether impressing them or doing things for them, or wearing my glasses so I don’t ram into them with my car! I just needed to be myself for a day and have the mentality “Whatever” in regards to all else. My kids being an extension of myself in my own mind, do not get included in the “Whatever”, of course.

The day was going pretty good and I was sitting here watching some Jenna Marbles (super funny) on YouTube (addicting), then decided to lay down for the next 15 minutes until the kids got home. Two minutes later the phone rings and I get a call from the school nurse. She has both of my kids and Michael was attacked at school and I need to come down there. I was told the SRO was trying to call me, but I don’t know what imaginary number they were trying to call because they didn’t call mine. I know full well they have my cell and I should have heard from someone by now, considering my son was ATTACKED AT SCHOOL. Needless to say, I plopped on my Avon Short Embroidered Boots and sailed out the door. Drove it like I stole it to the school, which is 2 miles away, hopped out and raced up to the door. At this point I heard ATTACK and SCRATCH and a whole bunch of other words that had me thinking about how these kids should be punished for hurting my Mikey.

I’m going to spare you any more details about my son’s encounter yesterday and move on. Three hours after I arrived at the school we leave and go home. I want nothing more than to call my husband and tell him what happened, but he’s on a mission and barely getting any sleep already so I can’t stress him out more with this. But at the same time, I’m holding all of this stress and it’s getting to me, bad. A couple of hours later I get a call from a friend who needs a ride home because her friend’s car isn’t working so I go to pick her up and it’s 55MPH, so naturally I’m driving anywhere between 55 & 60. I come up on a car, change lanes after the intersection to go around, and then change lanes back because I’m going to be turning right. I’m driving down the road and all of a sudden this car (the one I passed, to be exact) is running up behind me going like 70MPH and gets all the way on to my bumper. Instinctively I gas it to get away and change lanes and as they pass me, they flip me off. WTF? DO YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST WENT THROUGH!?? I’ve never wanted to get out of my car and beat someone senseless in the Walmart parking lot before, but now I’m beginning to understand why it happens.

So I got nothing done yesterday, despite being totally inspired to make a new site and I could hardly sleep because I wanted to work on it, but I knew I needed to go to bed. And I had to switch shifts at the OG with someone because I felt sick to my stomach at the idea of being away from my phone while my kids were at that school. Now I’m completely freaked out about even sending my kids to that school and I feel totally helpless at this point.

So much for posting daily. It was something I really wanted to begin doing, but I see now that it isn’t going to be possible. I work so much, I hardly have time for my blog what with being so rapped up in watching TV for 12 hours straight. What was that about? And since I laid in bed all day yesterday, I had a headache all night. Yesterday was completely wasted for me – I did not accomplish anything.

So yesterday I discovered a movie called “Amityville Haunting”, which takes place in the “Amityville Horror” house, but is a lot like Paranormal Activity. It was a cool move and I rated it as a like, but I would have liked it a lot more if Tyler had survived cuz I have a soft spot in my heart for tween boys right now (my boys are 11 & 12). Then, I discovered a show called “Who The (Bleep) Did I Marry?”, which is a lot like “Snapped!” but not quite. It sucked me in. I swear, I cannot be productive in the day after I’ve watched TV. The last story I saw reminded me of Jay, so I called him and told him about. We stayed on the phone for a while and I have to say, it’s nice to hear him happy again.

Today my list began with 9 tasks. Tasks ranging from house work, to E-Starr, to Avon. (Yes, I am going to take every opportunity to plug my businesses because I believe in them so much!) It’s nearly 6pm and I only have 4 tasks done, but that’s because I did the biggest, most time consuming thing on the entire list. I completed the home page for the new E-Starr design. I didn’t just finish the content or the placement, but I did the graphics, too. I must say, I am proud of myself. The graphics are nothing amazing, but I’m proud that I did them. I’m not sure why, but graphics really intimidate me. I think it’s because I’m such a perfectionist and I’m never happy with anything I do creatively. I also cleaned my bathroom, put out some Avon books, and put stickers on some of the 1,000 books I have laying around here for next campaign. Go me!

Now, over the next 2 hours, I have only to call leads, email my downline, call my customers, print out fliers, and move some files over from a disc to a flash drive. What do you think the chances are I will finish?

It is 7AM and I am still up! Even though I really, really wanna go lay back down. I am trying my darndest to stay up and accomplish some things today. My Avon order will be in at some point today, though I haven’t been lucky enough to get it in the morning in a long time.

Getting an Avon shipment is a lot like Christmas, and it happens every two weeks! It’s so exciting to get it and open it up and go through it all. Most of the stuff isn’t for me, but I always get myself something and then there’s the demo book, which is for representatives only. In this shipment I have the new hair color coming and I’m really not sure if I’m going to use it. I’ve never colored my hair, nor had any interest in coloring my hair, but it is free. When it comes in, I will show you and you can let me know if you think I should use it or not.

Of course, Avon is not the only thing I need to accomplish today. I also need to make some progress on E-Starr‘s new design and work on my house a little bit. I really, really want to get Jay’s Valentine’s Day present sent out to him so he can get it before he comes home to visit. I had it in time, I’m just terrible at shipping stuff. And then I thought I would wait until he got back, but then I don’t think he would enjoy the stuff as much while he’s home. So that must go out today! & apparently someone has to walk the dogs because that didn’t happen before the boys left for school.

So, off to a pretty good start! Just need to keep things rolling and not go to sleep. Oh! It’s March 1! Gotta go tear February off the calendar!

Why do I always do this to myself? Every new day brings new possibilities, but it seems like I tend to sleep through half of the day and then try to squeeze everything into the remainder of the day, which never quite works out. I also seem to always plan my day assuming everyone else is going to do what they’re supposed to do, when and how they’re supposed to do it.

Today I had my entire morning planned out, thinking that if I had stuff to do I would do it, rather than fall back asleep. That didn’t work out. So now I am trying to fit the entire list into what time I have left, which at this point is about an hour and 15 minutes. It’s clearly not going to happen, so sacrifices will have to be made. It’s time to decide what can wait until tomorrow. Unfortunately, most of the things on my list really can’t wait until tomorrow because they came from yesterday’s list and originated from days/weeks ago. *sigh*

Fortunately, blogging is on the list and that is getting done right now. I had planned to blog yesterday about how this WordPress theme was giving me such a headache, but the words were not coming. And apparently Hulu/GetGlue were much more interesting. Currently, I have 6 (this post makes 7 as soon as it’s done) down of a total of 14 and I am going to try my best to do them all! But let’s be realistic..

Michael just ran in with some clothes for me to put on, because I told him I had stuff to do. Either he wants me to get out of his way, or I have a helper today!